About 5 years ago, I sat in my living room crying after having had just watched the cheesiest Christian movie ever.
I wasn't crying because it was the most amazing cinematic experience I have ever had (and to be honest, it wasn't actually that great of a movie). I was crying because it was through watching this movie that I realized how far away from God I was.
The realization that I had pushed God so far out of my life stung. And I knew I did it so that I wouldn't have to face the reality of my past.
I pushed Him away because I knew that I was so angry at Him because I felt like He had abandoned me at the hardest moments in my life. Because of this, I had a hard time going back to God after everything that happened in my life. I needed help.
It was then that I decided to turn to someone who would gently bring me back to Him. I turned to our Mother Mary.
That night I said my first Pompeii 54-day Novena. I beg our heavenly Mother to fight my hardest battle to be able to come back and fall in love with our Lord.
It took a lot of work and perseverance no doubt, but within those 54 days, I can say I truly felt my life changing.
I went back to Confession after about a year, conquering what had been a huge fear of mine. For a long time I didn't trust that God was there, and that if I went He would only judge me. But I was tired of being angry and so I gave in to the Sacrament and I am so glad I did. I went to God the Father and talked to Him about my pain and feelings of abandonment. It freed me in a powerful way.
I now know that through asking for the intercession of our Lady, she helped heal the lies that I had told myself and gently came in to guide me back home. And it felt so good.
My dearest sisters, I have a really strong devotion to our Mother because I know what she has done for me in my life. I know that she saved me at a time where I felt like my world was about to fall apart. But I have to admit, the most amazing thing that Mary did for me was to show me who her beloved Son is. Each day she revealed to me His heart and His love for me.
I really hope that you too may experience Mary's goodness in your life. If you are struggling, go to her! She will guide you back home.
In Christ, Diana