Leap of faith
"In what ways do you feel you're attached to the outcome more than trusting God in the process?"
Really read that question.
This is a question Lysa TerKeurst poses to her readers (1). After hearing this for the third time, it finally pierced my heart.
I didn't really understand the concept of trusting God until life started going on, what seemed like a never-ending mudslide. Initially, things felt worse and worse and worse. So I tried harder and harder and harder to get exactly the outcome that I wanted because I thought that was the only way to get some relief. I got increasingly exhausted but kept behaving in the same way because I didn't know how else to respond. And you know what? It didn't work. As far as serenity goes, my efforts were useless, even counterproductive, and my life felt just as useless.
I ran out of options and was avoiding the one that mattered most: Trusting God.
It seems that in navigating all of the trauma and chaos in her life, Lysa constantly emphasizes how critical it is to cling to God. It is He who will bring us the relief we seek and not our desperate attempts at grabbing anything we can reach for. Our circumstances may never look like how we want them to look, so it doesn't make sense for us to be holding our breath as we wait for things to turn out as we planned.
It is scary to acknowledge that life may be painted differently than we wanted, but let's be careful not to equate different with miserable because, truth is, sometimes our own choices have been the causes of misery.
I am convinced that trusting is the only way for us to go, if we want peace. My futile efforts of controlling people, places, and things didn't help me find serenity in the long run and I am ready to try something that does. I don't want to be held captive to a situation, experiencing joy only when something outside of me allows me to.
Perhaps it's time for us to take a leap of faith and just choose to believe… Perhaps this is the more important piece...
Take some time to reflect on the question I shared at the beginning of the post (I will be too!), and what you can do to move a step closer to putting God in the center of your life.
(1) It's Not Supposed To Be This Way, Lysa TerKeurst (ok but how accurate is this title when it comes to many parts of life?)