In the deep silence of a heart that doesn't desire anything stimulating that God can reveal himself
I lost count the amount of times I would ask God for a particular sign. Granted, sometimes I would get it and it completely blew my mind! Other times I wouldn't...or I would read too much into them.
I wanted to share a reflection I read a few days ago that really made me think about how I approach asking for signs...and do I really need them.
"It usually isn't a good idea to ask signs from God. 'An evil and adulterous generation asks for a sign.' Jesus reproaches the pharisees.
To ask for signs indicates a lack of trust. Those who truly trust in God have no need for any sign beyond the death and resurrection of Jesus. This great, more than explicit, sign is always present to us in the Eucharist. What more could we want?
From time to time, God allows for our petty and egotistical wishes and makes certain signs happen when someones has asked foe them.
Thomas wanted a sign; he wanted to put his finger into the wounds of Jesus. He was given the longed-for sign, but was chided by Jesus at the same time: 'Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe' (Jn 20:29). Only that which God wishes and plans for our lives can give us lasting happiness and blessedness.
If you want to know God as God really is, then you should not seek him in visible and concrete signs. It is in the deep silence of a heart that doesn't desire anything stimulating that God can reveal himself. When you trust God and let him be hidden, you will find signs of his presence where you lease expect them." (Stinissen, pg.211).
At first when read this reflection I thought "well...that was pretty intense Father." As with any reflection there may be things that apply to you and things that don't, but be always open to something God may be trying to tell you in that moment. Some questions did come into my heart however that I want to leave you with.
Do I seek God in these visible and concrete signs more than I do in the depth and silence of my heart? Do I trust that God hears my prayers even when I don't get a sign I wanted?
Fr. Wilfrid Stinissen, "This is the Day the Lord Has Made: 365 Daily Medidations"