I will only ever find true peace in God
For anyone who, like me, has ever experienced anxiety or simply has a list of unanswered questions, I would highly encourage tuning into Fr. Mike Schmitz' homily from this past Sunday (1). I will share with you what I took from it because, for me, it was so powerful.
He really hit the nail on the head when it comes to seeking security through data collection, especially in this time, when we're asking a lot of when questions, "when will this be over?" "when will I go back to work?". Father Mike explains that some questions need to be answered (i.e. "how many people will come to my wedding?") so that we can plan ahead, however not all questions actually need to be answered in order for us to move forward today.
He explains that as Catholic-Christians we are called to find rest while everything around us is restless. Sometimes I try to find peace in things (i.e. answers, control, achievements) or in people (i.e. "when he does x, I'll be ok") but I will only ever find true peace in God.
Just like a flock of sheep that doesn't know exactly where their Shepard will take them, they know his voice and just follow him. We are called to do the same for Christ, explains Father Mike. Some ways in which we can hear our Shepard's voice is through soaking ourselves in God's Word and through participating in mass.
Even though we may not have all of our questions answered, one of the things we do know is that we are always called to live in virtue.
I get very easily caught up in everything I don't know, but there seems to be quite a few things that are always certain (i.e. going to His word, living in virtue) and I can always start there.
Let's apply this today. What area of our lives could use more courage, temperance or humility? Pray for grace and choose a practical way to live out your chosen virtue. Make this part of your reflection as you sit with a short bible verse for five minutes, and attend daily mass today.
Everyone's circumstances look different, you know what you are able to do and God knows your heart as well. Be patient and honest with yourself as you seek to discover peace in God.
Note: If you are experiencing a lot of anxiety, you are not alone. I'm with you on that boat, as are many others. You, like me, may need professional help and that's okay. You may need to change something in your lifestyle to help your body relax. Take care of yourself so that you can show up to life as your best self. Your family, friends, your community, and those you serve all benefit from you being the healthiest you. And most of all, you benefit from a healthy you! Nurture your body, mind and soul, with God, through God and in God