Caught up in the future
Time and time again I find myself getting caught up in the future, and it has me worrying nonstop. Luckily, God has placed wonderful people on my path to ease this fearful thinking and redirect me to the present. I’d like to share with you, dear sister, what God has shown me.
Looking to the future is a good thing, a healthy thing, even a necessary thing. If I don’t think about the future at all, I lose track of purpose. When I focus on the future too much, I lose track of sanity. There is a healthy balance in the middle where I acknowledge the future without it paralyzing me. In this healthy balance, I allow the future to be a source of encouragement.
So, how do I get there?
As God heals my wounds of the past, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about the future. I get inspired by yet another God-fueled woman and I start envisioning myself as a woman-made-new-in-Christ. Yet this hope is quickly dampened by the how. “How will He be able to make my heart new?” “How can I unsee what I’ve seen?” “How will I ever find peace?” “How will I ever feel okay?” “How will I ever be less judgemental?” “How will these wounds ever be healed?”
These questions get my mind spinning, because in all honesty, it sometimes seems impossible to move from the place where I currently stand.
The thing is that, there is no use wondering how things will ever happen, because that’s God’s job... “I do my best and God will do the rest”, a quote based on Colossians 3:23-24. I do my part and trust and wait in hopefulness that God will do His. And He will.
I trust Him because He promises that His plans for me are “plans to prosper [me] and not to harm [me], plans to give [me] hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11). When I don’t believe His promises, that’s when I start to feel hopeless about the future, and I know that hopefulness lights up my whole being.
What can I do today? Seek Him. What can I do tomorrow? Seek Him. “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.” (Jeremiah 29:12-14). He wants to free me from the fear that enslaves me today, and that can only happen when I surrender to Him. I dedicate time everyday to prayer and reflecting on His word. I put in the effort and God will take care of the results.
The how is in the now, so let’s ask ourselves “what can I do today to nourish my soul?” That’s it. When I try to to find all of the answers, that’s when things get complicated. God gives me the answers that I need, when I need them. It’s not my time, but it’s the right time. Trust, my dear sister, trust.